it will suffice to just be
really sorry..
and nothing else.
because that's how i always
find myself-
passive when
dealing with guilt.
so when it comes to people
i feel mainly apologetic and
not terribly at ease.
on one hand,
i (somedays) degenerate to a
14 year old mentality,
and feel like it's my way
of punishing the world for
making it hard for me to be
entirely happy.
on the other hand,
i prefer to disappear !
i am what PM Goh Chok Tong would
refer to as a quitter
you can despise me !
i also secretly believe that
if i never _________
maybe i wouldn't be half the enigma
i am today.
i could have grown up different,
i could even have been normal,
or what the heck,
nice!
the place was harsh,
and still a difficult place to
go back to.
i was wrecked quite bad..
and i would like to recover to
pre-wreckage days !
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will be tourleading
to vietnam next week,
so hello all you strangers.
some butterflies in the stomach,
but GOTTA DO WHATS GOTTA BE DONE!
see u alls.
10:42 PM